Christmas Day.
Serving guard duty in camp.
Oh well. No biggy.
CO the biggest fuck in 6SIR came to visit us. Some speech he gave to all those doing guard duty on Christmas say.
Saying how important it was.
Etc etc.
Gave us some cookies and chocolate to share among ourselves.
Then I was rashly woken up.
Just.
My Platoon Commander came to visit us.
I thought what we did wrong.
He just say thanks. And shit.
Gave us some chocolate.
And drive off already.
Didn't know he still had a heart.
Amazing =P
I thought only I didn't have a heart.
Monday, December 24, 2012
Joel, it's been a year now.
Still remember what you heard and comfirmed during Chinese New Year ?
Happy now Joel ?
You were so confident in not happening.
But the worst still happened.
You just got the blame with yourself.
You partly knew that was going to happen. Now what ?
Regret your entire life ?
Still remember what you heard and comfirmed during Chinese New Year ?
Happy now Joel ?
You were so confident in not happening.
But the worst still happened.
You just got the blame with yourself.
You partly knew that was going to happen. Now what ?
Regret your entire life ?
Friday, December 21, 2012
im missing something....
im not sure what it is...
but i just doesnt feel right....
in my mind right now ?
i wanna see my grandmother...
she's been sick lately...
i i i definately do not wish to lose her..
she is my dearest family member....
although i didnt treat her well last time...
i know i was wrong..
i shall go her place this year end =D
warm up her place a tiny bit =D
im not sure what it is...
but i just doesnt feel right....
in my mind right now ?
i wanna see my grandmother...
she's been sick lately...
i i i definately do not wish to lose her..
she is my dearest family member....
although i didnt treat her well last time...
i know i was wrong..
i shall go her place this year end =D
warm up her place a tiny bit =D
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Once again.
At your place below. Whenever I'm too stressed up. I would be there.
Sitting down, behind the 3rd wall on the right of the lift.
Feeling the wind.
And I could stay there a long time.
Knowing there would not be at mosquito bites.
Abit afraid what if you saw me.
I wouldn't know what to do.
If you were to see me.
But then, I need to find a way to relieve stress.
Partly maybe seeing the time that its Sunday.
There would be some point in time.
Where friends will all leave.
And make their way alone.
To be honest.
I feel happy for yyn now.
He's no longer scared of girls around him.
I no longer feel the need of being with him.
On the other hand right now.
It was me at the end.
The need of accompany.
I looked back.
Febuary 8th 2012.
The day you sent me that message.
That day I still know how it felt.
So bad.
I was playing. As usual at night. 8plus.
Where I heard your unique text sound which I made only for you.
I paused the bloody game.
Making 9 other people wait.
I read through.
And I left the game. Took my items.
And walked out of house.
That dreadful 30min of walk from my place to yours.
Was unbelievable.
Enough of that, I do not wish to go back there anymore.
That very Sunday.
The coldness you gave me.
Left a deep down void within.
Every weekend now.
Trying my best to gather up my friends.
Trying my very best to not lose them.
Even on my expense.
I do not mind.
But it doesn't last.
Can't even compare with just sitting beside you.
Doing nothing or saying anything.
That was when I knew.
I seriously love you.
Every single dumb selfish mistakes I did.
Only hurt myself even more.
When I think back.
The feeling of just sitting beside you.
The very acknowledgement of my existence to you.
Made everything worth it.
During the last fine days.
Before your birthday.
After mine.
I became really paranoid with myself.
I became so afraid of losing you.
That I did things that wasn't me at all.
The feeling was so intense.
I couldn't feel myself anywhere.
I felt like extending my feelings for you.
And let you know how I really felt for you.
I didn't know what to do.
Until 29th January 2012.
When I felt. The only thing refraining myself. Was myself.
I wasn't fully opened to you.
I wanted to talk to you so badly.
But when you were to be beside me.
My mind just goes blank.
I couldn't think of anything.
I met you up after your dance.
Catch a movie together ?
I Not Naughty ?
Ended up didn't watch due to it was too late ?
You came to see my grandmother.
The one thing I didn't tell you was.
In my hands.
I got the movie tickets already.
Already bought before hand.
I got 2.
Perfectionist thinking.
2 tickets for 7.30pm at katong GV.
And another 2 tickets for 9.30pm at tampines GV.
I was crazy.
Anything that could spend more time with you. I didn't mind.
But the one thing I didn't expect was you agreeing to coming to my grandmother place.
Lied to my grandmother that night about we had our dinner already.
Went off for our own dinner.
I was really too happy.
Till I ordered both my drinks and food wrong. I didn't make a fuss out of it.
I just ate on.
The emptiness.
Could never be replaced by anything anyone else.
At your place below. Whenever I'm too stressed up. I would be there.
Sitting down, behind the 3rd wall on the right of the lift.
Feeling the wind.
And I could stay there a long time.
Knowing there would not be at mosquito bites.
Abit afraid what if you saw me.
I wouldn't know what to do.
If you were to see me.
But then, I need to find a way to relieve stress.
Partly maybe seeing the time that its Sunday.
There would be some point in time.
Where friends will all leave.
And make their way alone.
To be honest.
I feel happy for yyn now.
He's no longer scared of girls around him.
I no longer feel the need of being with him.
On the other hand right now.
It was me at the end.
The need of accompany.
I looked back.
Febuary 8th 2012.
The day you sent me that message.
That day I still know how it felt.
So bad.
I was playing. As usual at night. 8plus.
Where I heard your unique text sound which I made only for you.
I paused the bloody game.
Making 9 other people wait.
I read through.
And I left the game. Took my items.
And walked out of house.
That dreadful 30min of walk from my place to yours.
Was unbelievable.
Enough of that, I do not wish to go back there anymore.
That very Sunday.
The coldness you gave me.
Left a deep down void within.
Every weekend now.
Trying my best to gather up my friends.
Trying my very best to not lose them.
Even on my expense.
I do not mind.
But it doesn't last.
Can't even compare with just sitting beside you.
Doing nothing or saying anything.
That was when I knew.
I seriously love you.
Every single dumb selfish mistakes I did.
Only hurt myself even more.
When I think back.
The feeling of just sitting beside you.
The very acknowledgement of my existence to you.
Made everything worth it.
During the last fine days.
Before your birthday.
After mine.
I became really paranoid with myself.
I became so afraid of losing you.
That I did things that wasn't me at all.
The feeling was so intense.
I couldn't feel myself anywhere.
I felt like extending my feelings for you.
And let you know how I really felt for you.
I didn't know what to do.
Until 29th January 2012.
When I felt. The only thing refraining myself. Was myself.
I wasn't fully opened to you.
I wanted to talk to you so badly.
But when you were to be beside me.
My mind just goes blank.
I couldn't think of anything.
I met you up after your dance.
Catch a movie together ?
I Not Naughty ?
Ended up didn't watch due to it was too late ?
You came to see my grandmother.
The one thing I didn't tell you was.
In my hands.
I got the movie tickets already.
Already bought before hand.
I got 2.
Perfectionist thinking.
2 tickets for 7.30pm at katong GV.
And another 2 tickets for 9.30pm at tampines GV.
I was crazy.
Anything that could spend more time with you. I didn't mind.
But the one thing I didn't expect was you agreeing to coming to my grandmother place.
Lied to my grandmother that night about we had our dinner already.
Went off for our own dinner.
I was really too happy.
Till I ordered both my drinks and food wrong. I didn't make a fuss out of it.
I just ate on.
The emptiness.
Could never be replaced by anything anyone else.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
First time in years.
I felt so down.
Only 1 replyed.
Although I texted to 2 person.
I just splashed everything out.
Like a tsunami.
And he replyed, with full concern.
Even though tomorrow he had outfield.
It's been a long time since people said could lend me their ears.
And he replyed exactly the same way I received it last time.
' I could lend you my ears, it's priceless '
I dunno why, but....
It seems to me like a message.
A guide.
An answer.
A tip.
A hint.
I felt so down.
Only 1 replyed.
Although I texted to 2 person.
I just splashed everything out.
Like a tsunami.
And he replyed, with full concern.
Even though tomorrow he had outfield.
It's been a long time since people said could lend me their ears.
And he replyed exactly the same way I received it last time.
' I could lend you my ears, it's priceless '
I dunno why, but....
It seems to me like a message.
A guide.
An answer.
A tip.
A hint.
Monday, December 3, 2012
Had a long chat last Saturday.
He told me some things about me that she did not explain clearly about.
I brought him to sit with me.
Near your place.
He knew about it. Cause there should not be a reason for a long silent walk.
From the place he parked his van to the location.
Instead he said.
"What if she came down.
Seeing you like this.
Would it change anything ? "
" You know ? We are alike.
Sentimental people loses out this way."
Then for some reason his next few sentences I didn't hear.
I came to know of quite a number of things which I didn't know of.
First was the way I text.
I like expect people to know of the answer. Then skipping to the next topic.
I Shall Copy the text as a example.
Me :
Are you alone tonight ?
Him :
Yongde and Clarence staying over for whole month.
[ Next Text after 10min ]
But they normally sleep outside. If you want to come and chat it's fine.
[ Next Text after another 20min ]
Tonight only Yongde staying. Clarence going home to sleep. If you don't mind coming over, I'm ok with it.
Me :
You wanna grab supper ?
Him :
I'm actually very full but I can accompany you if you want to eat.
[ 1 Hour later ]
Me :
You mind if now ?
I have a idea where to go=P
Think you know too.
Him :
Ok. 85 ?
Me :
Yes.
Then after he came to pick me up.
If you were to notice.
The way I texted. Actually needs the other people to read my mind.
This is well.
Something I need to change.
Next would be.
I need to talk more.
And not to keep things to myself.
It's realli hard for the opposite to know what I'm thinking. It would be unfair.
Plus if I kept on keeping things to myself. Not letting the other know.
It might make the other side feel uncomfortable as well.
Insecurity and such.
He was able to tell me so I knew.
He was able to know cause he knew my family always just never talk much together.
That would be hard to change one person when he's like in that environment where everyone just keep things to themselves for the early years of my life.
And I do think when you guys read this. Think you guys also dunno what I'm talking about already.
Who I'm referring to all that.
See !
That is shit.
Anyway. I also dunno how still see this blog. And the other.
But for those who understand.
Tell me if I'm right or wrong.
Would it be right or wrong to tell a the girl you love how to feel ?
In terms of you are example, jealous ?
Would it be right or wrong when you both are like friends ?
Not even like in a relationship.
Did I do it wrongly ?
For those kind enough.
Tell me over the chat box.
[ Edit ]
And hey !
I forget no chat box.
Shit !
Text me about it ? @ 9187 6564
Or send me a message over Facebook?
I would like to have answers.
Or different opinions.
He told me some things about me that she did not explain clearly about.
I brought him to sit with me.
Near your place.
He knew about it. Cause there should not be a reason for a long silent walk.
From the place he parked his van to the location.
Instead he said.
"What if she came down.
Seeing you like this.
Would it change anything ? "
" You know ? We are alike.
Sentimental people loses out this way."
Then for some reason his next few sentences I didn't hear.
I came to know of quite a number of things which I didn't know of.
First was the way I text.
I like expect people to know of the answer. Then skipping to the next topic.
I Shall Copy the text as a example.
Me :
Are you alone tonight ?
Him :
Yongde and Clarence staying over for whole month.
[ Next Text after 10min ]
But they normally sleep outside. If you want to come and chat it's fine.
[ Next Text after another 20min ]
Tonight only Yongde staying. Clarence going home to sleep. If you don't mind coming over, I'm ok with it.
Me :
You wanna grab supper ?
Him :
I'm actually very full but I can accompany you if you want to eat.
[ 1 Hour later ]
Me :
You mind if now ?
I have a idea where to go=P
Think you know too.
Him :
Ok. 85 ?
Me :
Yes.
Then after he came to pick me up.
If you were to notice.
The way I texted. Actually needs the other people to read my mind.
This is well.
Something I need to change.
Next would be.
I need to talk more.
And not to keep things to myself.
It's realli hard for the opposite to know what I'm thinking. It would be unfair.
Plus if I kept on keeping things to myself. Not letting the other know.
It might make the other side feel uncomfortable as well.
Insecurity and such.
He was able to tell me so I knew.
He was able to know cause he knew my family always just never talk much together.
That would be hard to change one person when he's like in that environment where everyone just keep things to themselves for the early years of my life.
And I do think when you guys read this. Think you guys also dunno what I'm talking about already.
Who I'm referring to all that.
See !
That is shit.
Anyway. I also dunno how still see this blog. And the other.
But for those who understand.
Tell me if I'm right or wrong.
Would it be right or wrong to tell a the girl you love how to feel ?
In terms of you are example, jealous ?
Would it be right or wrong when you both are like friends ?
Not even like in a relationship.
Did I do it wrongly ?
For those kind enough.
Tell me over the chat box.
[ Edit ]
And hey !
I forget no chat box.
Shit !
Text me about it ? @ 9187 6564
Or send me a message over Facebook?
I would like to have answers.
Or different opinions.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
My
Platoon mate.
Passed me his phone.
Till Friday. Like to take care.
Blackberry. First time touch.
I this 3 days. Stay in camp while the others go for outfield.
Due to my ankle.
Entire block no one.
Haiz....
I know this is not right.
But I looked through his entire phone.
Just got the bad habits of curiosity.
Put my contact number to his handphone. Lol.
Then see through.
'by luck' saw his messages.
No sim card. I not that bad.
Read through.
I realize. He dumping his 1year plus girlfriend. Haiz.
Girlfriend was there during your bmt brother !!!
The girl was there....
I saw her taking photo with you during the parade with your super sweaty shirt.
He used 3 excuses.
Not good for her.
National service.
And going overseas.
I find this 3 is fucked up.
The girl... Your girl !!
See you through fucking bmt.
What more else could you ask for.
Platoon mate.
Passed me his phone.
Till Friday. Like to take care.
Blackberry. First time touch.
I this 3 days. Stay in camp while the others go for outfield.
Due to my ankle.
Entire block no one.
Haiz....
I know this is not right.
But I looked through his entire phone.
Just got the bad habits of curiosity.
Put my contact number to his handphone. Lol.
Then see through.
'by luck' saw his messages.
No sim card. I not that bad.
Read through.
I realize. He dumping his 1year plus girlfriend. Haiz.
Girlfriend was there during your bmt brother !!!
The girl was there....
I saw her taking photo with you during the parade with your super sweaty shirt.
He used 3 excuses.
Not good for her.
National service.
And going overseas.
I find this 3 is fucked up.
The girl... Your girl !!
See you through fucking bmt.
What more else could you ask for.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
List of promotion of rank up today.
With effect of 16th this month.
Sir said one person per team level.
And must be bike trained.
So basically, my team only have got 2 people bike trained.
Me and my buddy.
Due to my condition.
Sir also said.
Must support the team through this scout course. Was wondering.
Who else could they promote ?
With effect of 16th this month.
Sir said one person per team level.
And must be bike trained.
So basically, my team only have got 2 people bike trained.
Me and my buddy.
Due to my condition.
Sir also said.
Must support the team through this scout course. Was wondering.
Who else could they promote ?
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Sister came back from overseas after 4 days. Told me my
Face look slimmer.
Of course lar.
No appetite.
Last week still able to eat lunch. A few bite.
Now breakfast got eat.
Lunch and dinner never eat at all.
Only take drink.
Tried eating full meal.
Forced it down.
Felt like vomiting.
Feeling just sucked.
Face look slimmer.
Of course lar.
No appetite.
Last week still able to eat lunch. A few bite.
Now breakfast got eat.
Lunch and dinner never eat at all.
Only take drink.
Tried eating full meal.
Forced it down.
Felt like vomiting.
Feeling just sucked.
Monday, October 1, 2012
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Monday, August 20, 2012
I Didnt Think That You Would Disappoint Me As Well...
Looked Up To You As A Great Business Man.
With An Awesome Financial Intelligence.
Good Role Model Of Every Youth.
Great Public Speaker.
Great Advisor.
Listens To My Storys And Understands...
Showed Me The Proper Way.
But You Are Heading To A Grave.
And You Are Not Climbing Out Of It.
Instead You Are Digging Yourself More And More Deep.
I Couldnt Help You If You Have Given Yourself Up.
Going OutField For The Next 4 Days.
I Think Saturday Morning.
Then Book Out.
Well Depends.....
Field Camp...
One Of My Most Hated Thing.
Somemore This Month....
Could Be The Worst To Have It.
4 Days 3 Night....
First 2 Days....
Doing Some Infantry Formation, Fire Movements And Such.
Kinda Love It 0.0
But Then...
The Last 2 Nights.
We Recce Team.
Going For Some Navigation Course OutField.
For 48 Hours.
With 4 Man Team..
Thats Not The Worst Part.
The Worst Part Is...
Our Field Camp Is Just Beside Lim Chu Kang Cemetary...
So....
Navigate Around That Area ?
Not Too Good....
Monday, July 23, 2012
Friday, July 13, 2012
Posting Is Out Today Morning...
Guess What ...
A Indoor Guy.
Sleeps Alot At Home. Lazy Idiot...
Receives The 3rd Toughest Vocation In The Entire Army.
Recce Aka Scout.
With It's Amazing 72km Route March.
[ Which Is 3 Times More Than The BMT Graduation March ]
Need To UnderGo Torture Treatment...
Prisoner Of War...
Observational Skills.
Field Bag Items More...
First "In", Last "Out"
Just For Information.
1st Toughest Is : Commandos.
2nd Is : Guards.
Then 3rd Is Yeah !
Who Would Have Thought...
1 Charlie Company...
119 Recruits.
2 Recce.
1 Got Pulled In, Due To Not Enough People In Recce Batch.
[ Not Me ]
The Other One [ Me ]
Personally My Platoon Commander Told Me Straight Up.
" I Recommended You To Recce... "
Can You Imagine It ?
I Asked Why....
" I Saw That Recce's "Cut" In You "
WTF !!!!
Kill Me =(
Recce... Have The Most Amount Of Deaths In The SAF....
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
Stayed Over @ Anderson's Place From Saturday Noon Till Monday Morning.
Had Dinner With His Friend Today.
Together With A Female Child.
While Eating Together On The Dining Table.
Finally Took Notice Of The 4 Year Old Girl.
Her Face, Her HairStyle....
How She Smiled At Me.
The Shape For The Face Looks Exactly.
Like Someone I Saw....
In An NRIC...
Haiz...
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Lent Bicycle From YongKang Awhile...
It's Been Quite A Long Time Since I Ride One.
And There's Only 1 Place I Wished To Go.
Cycled There Quickly... Using The Same Old Route Via Avenue 9.
Afraid To Use That Road, But I Just Cycled Past That Asap.
See See, Rested Awhile.
Timed Myself, Halved The Time I Used To Reach That Place...
Went Back...
Of Course YongKang Asked How Come So Long....
I Didnt Reply.....
But When He Took Over...
He Adjusted His Gears, And He Looked To Me.
I Know He Knew Where I Went...
Old Habits From Me Using Gear 3,5.
Looks Like He Didnt Forget Anything...
Where We Just Used To Go.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Sunday, May 27, 2012
inside army...
there are lots of people.
coming together.
all with different background.
met upon a guy.
whose family background was fortune telling.
he said that the lines on your palm tells about the year you have been through or going to be going through.
came upon looking at mine.
told me that my this year would be the most interesting hard decision making.
he said something true just by seeing those lines.
he said that, there would be a time.
where you are forced. to stop everything due to the problem.
he also told me that this year.
your decision is going to change your life in the future.
asked him how you see that.
he pointed. and which I was confused with it as the relationship line. but instead it was my life.
chitchatted awhile.
and moved on with our activites in camp.
there are lots of people.
coming together.
all with different background.
met upon a guy.
whose family background was fortune telling.
he said that the lines on your palm tells about the year you have been through or going to be going through.
came upon looking at mine.
told me that my this year would be the most interesting hard decision making.
he said something true just by seeing those lines.
he said that, there would be a time.
where you are forced. to stop everything due to the problem.
he also told me that this year.
your decision is going to change your life in the future.
asked him how you see that.
he pointed. and which I was confused with it as the relationship line. but instead it was my life.
chitchatted awhile.
and moved on with our activites in camp.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Guess Everyone Got Their Good Points And Bad Points.
One Day In Camp.
Someone, Not Gonna Tell Who.
Read My Personal Diary.
He Smiled.
And Told Me.
"Stop Trying To Be Somebody Which You Are Already Am."
He Asked Me.
During NS Medical Checkup Question-Air.
Why Did You Put Friends As Your Main Priority.
I Just Said, They Lit My Life Up.
You Shouldnt Be Here Joel Shee...
I Know...
Pass Your IPPT, We Shall See If We Can Do Something About You.
Which Station You Fail ?
2.4 And Chin Up.
2.4 ?
Dont Need To Worry About That.
Once My Chin Up Hits 6, Watch Me Fly.
I Never Knew Something In Myself.
Until Those Newly Enlisted People Came In Last Monday.
Something I Didnt Realize.
Im So Called...
Sadist...
But Im Not Those Kind Inflict Pain On People Feel Happy.
When I See Them Suffer, I See Them Scolding Each Other For Their Mistakes.
I See Them Fucking Each Other Up For Their Mistakes.
When I Was Given The Authority To Knock Them Down.
Slight Happiness.
Smiling....
In Camp My Ex-Nickname During Physical Training Period Was
"Siao-On"
Now...
"Sadist"
I Could Be The Worst Person You Would Come Across.
With My Unusual Loud Shouting Voice Could Be Heard.
1 Shout And The Voice Could Actually Echo 3 Times Across The Blocks.
Just 1 Time.
It Could Be Heard All The Way From One Side To Another.
UnUsual....
Was Thinking Hey...
I Could Just Kill My Own Life With Army Career.
Kill My Plans.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Dear God, I Have Received And Know The Signs.
That I Asked For.
But, Why ?
Does Making Me Hurt Again Make You Happy ?
I Know You Had 5 Times In My Life.
That You Could Take Me Away To You.
1 Time During Primary 6, Where A Security Guard Pulled Me Away From A Speeding Car.
Another Time During Secondary 2 Where I Was Knocked Down By A Car.
This Year, During February Where I Was A Inch Away From The Van.
Another 2 Times During National Service.
The Time Gap Between Each Other Getting Lesser And Lesser.
If You Wish To Take Me To You.
Please Do So.
If I Were To Go Unconsious.
I Wouldnt Have The Will To Live On Anymore.
I Have Done My Best.
But Well..
I Would Have 2 Regrets To Bring With Me.
That I Do Not Think I Would Complete So.
If You Were To Take Me To You One Day.
As My Last Wish.
Let Me Write A Last Text Message.
Before I Go....
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Slack Week Ahead...
Later Book In @ 8.30pm.
Tomorrow Got Re-Test For IPPT [NAFA Test]
Then Afternoon Got Out Camp Battlion Run.
6km @ East Coast Park.
From There Release.
Go Home Should Be About 7-8pm.
Tuesday Night Go Back Again....
Wednesday Got FootDrill Competition =D
Slack Slack ~~
Thursday Spartan Challenge.......
Also Slack.
Thursday Evening Book Out.
Then Basic Military Training Starts...
Monday Night, Next Monday Night Then Book In.
Then Got Some New Guys In Bunk...
Cant Wait....
Hope Stephen Same Company With Me =D
Hopes*
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Should Not Have Told My Mum
That Im Having Fever Plus Cough.
Didnt Tell Mum That Im Having Headache As Well..
Only A Few Knows What Happens
When I Feel Fever And Headache.
Seeing Her Worried...
While Seeing Me Changing Off To Smart 4 [ NS Uniform ]
Yet She Cant Do Anything..
Should Have Kept It To Myself...
Tuesday's IPPT. [ NAFA ]
Must Do My Best.
Or Else...
My Next 3 Weeks Would Be Hell For Me.
I Need My Friday Night Sleep @ Home !
I Dun Want Stay At Camp During Friday Night...
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Friday, April 6, 2012
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
I Still Remember Graduation Day For Ite.
I Went Back To Find Mr.Joel
He Was Realli Busy...
So We Took Off.
Wanted To Say Thanks...
Had My Last Conversation With Me Class Advisor.
She Still Acting Cute As Normal...
Always Fun To Have Her Around...
Told Me That, Joel....
Puts* Her Hand On My Shoulders...
I Know You Didnt Take This Course Because You Like It...
I See That You Have A Potential For Something Else..
* Thinking Thinking *
Business Mindset... She Exclaimed...
Had My Last Lunch At The School...
Dreadfully Not Returning There Anymore...
Saw Some Classmates...
They Said...
Stay In Touch Ya ???
Deep Down....
I Remembered How "Nice" They Treated Me And My Group...
Next Time You Need Help ?
It Would Be 1 Finger To Him...
1 Finger To Her...
Just Like What They Did Back Then...
Except That I Would Do Or Say It In A Polite Manner..
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Family Helping Me Pack My Tiny Bag.
For National Service.
Although Its Just A Little Things.
They Helped Out In Anyway Possible.
It's Properbly The First Time I Felt Their Concern.
Perhaps They Were Concerned All The Time Last Time.
Just That I Didnt Bother To Feel It.
Oh Well, Happy..
Although Its A Bit Too Late.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
That Day When I Announced That I Was Quitting....
So Many People Called Me...
So Many People Asked, If It's Able To Pass On Instead...
I Just Kept Quiet....
Many People Knew.....
Something Was Wrong...
Cause No Matter What...
I Would Be Online...
But I Was Offline The Last Few Weeks....
Everyone Knew Something Was Wrong....
But Didnt Ask Why....
Or Didnt Want Me To Say....
Lost, Many Friends....
I Finally Realize Why....
My Mum Last Time Would Forbid Me To Do Housework.
After Talking To My Grandmother...
She Said, Boys Or Guys, Cannot Do Housework....
[ It Doesnt Mean We Do Not Have The Ability To Do So ]
But It Meant, That Ladies Must Do So.
Dunno If You Get It Or Not....
My Dad Last Time Would Argue With My Mum With Housework...
He Soon Gave Up Arguing Over Such Small Stuff And Gave In....
Now I Know Why.....
Me And Ahma Would Also Argue With What Im Doing...
But I Still Tried To Help...
Today Morning....
Watching My Old Movie....
All Time Wanted To Watch It...
I Realize That, When She Came In.
I Would Auto Pause...
And Go Out, Say Morning....
Normally I Do Not....
When I Watch Something Which I Like.
I Wouldnt Pause It No Matter What.
Even If The World Come Crashing Down.
Or When People Call Me....
It Seemed To Me....
My Mum's Past Good Intentions...
Spoiled Me Alot...
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
To My Fellow Close Maplers.
Who Follows My Blog.
You Guys Should Know That Im The Only
"Founder Of Dreamworks"
Left Active In Maple.
One Quitted Maple For A Better Reality Life.
One Quitted Maple Leaving For Dota, Plus His National Service As Well.
Another One Had Over-Intensive Work Schedules....
I'm Hereby Quitting Maple.
Again..
For Good. Again.....
I Have Quitted Maple Back Then @ Year 2010.
Came Back On Middle 2011.
Quitting As Of 2 Weeks From Now.
Discussed With My Fellow Founders.
We Would Be Giving 2 Weeks Of Head.
To All To Leave The Guild.
You Guys Are Able To Reformed Into Another Guild Or So.
"Dreamworks"
Would Not Be Disbanded.
But Would Be Kept By Us, As A Memory.
After 2 Weeks From Now.
4th Of March.
Every Single Other Member, Would Be Forcefully Expeled.
No Negotiation.
I Most Proberbly, Would Not Go Back To That Game Anymore.
If I Were To Show Signs Of Mapling Again.
To My Fellow Close Close Friends.
Please Remind Me Of What Happened On The Last Half Of The Year 2011.
Thanks.
Wonder What I Have Been Doing ?
Oh Well,
My Weekday Schedule Nowadays !
Wake Up, Make My Bed.
Wash Up, If Early.
Wait Grandmother Come Over.
First, Take The Basket Full Of Used Clothes.
Put Them Into The Washing Machine, Seperate Them If Needed.
Still Dunno What Colours To Seperate What =P
Need Ahma's Advice =P
She Do The Talking.
I Do The Doing =P
She Would Clean My Sister's Room.
I Would Clean My Own Room.
Then We Would Clean My Mum's Room Together.
We Together Did The Living Room And Dining Room.
I Would Clean Up Everything On The Floor.
She Would Clean Everything Above Floor.
Chitchat All The Way.
Finished With Work.
Waiting For Grandpa Come Over, And Waiting For Papa Wake Up.
Finished The Work, Should Be Time To Hang The Clothes Already !!
She Helped To Do The Clipping Of The Clippers.
We Hang Them Dry.
Hang Them Outside The Corridor In The Case It Was Raining.
Next, I Would Carry A Large Pill Of Water Out.
She Would Then Water The Plants, While I Sweep The Floor Outside.
We Would Help Water Our Neighbour's Plants.
I Would Also Help Sweep Their Area.
By That Time, Grandpa Should Arrive Le.
Most Times He Would Have Lots Of Things With Him.
I Would Help Him Put Those Things.
Got Drinks, Water, Food, Ingredients.
Etc Etc.
Finish Le Leis.
Me And Ahma Would Sit Down And Chat =P
While Grandpa Would Prepare The Food For Dinner.
Cooking.
Well, I Would Never Touch Anything In F&B.
I Was Like No No Way !!
No No No No No No No No No.
That Includes Washing Dishes.
Well, I Did Help Preparing The Dishes Before Sending Them To Cook.
Accidently Cut Myself.
Then Looking At How My Grandparents Reacted.
They Insisted That I Do Not Help Them =(
Would Be Around 5pm.
Papa Wakes Up.
While He At Toilet.
We Quickly Mobbed The Floor Of The Master Bed Room.
Quickly Cleaned Up.
Made The Bed.
And Disappear Before my Father Come Out =P
I Would Make A Coffee And Bring Out A Lunch Box And Out It
At The Table For Papa.
He Comes Out.
Eating....
Most Likely After Bathing, Stuff Stuff...
We Rushed Into The Toilet.
Still Learning What To Use On What.
There Were Quite A Number Of Detergent You Know ?!?!
So Yep, Finished.
Then We Rested....
Till Grandpa Finished Cooking.
We Would Rest At The Kitchen Table.
Talking To Each Other.
They Would Be Surprise That Im Not At My Computer...
Haha...
After Finished Cooking.
And He Washed Up The Dishes.
I Would Mob Up The Kitchen Floor.
While They Bring In The Clothes.
One Would Bring In The Clothes.
One Would Prepare Ironing Them.
Well, Mobbing The Kitchen Floor Was Harder Than The Rest Of The Rooms.
Need Use So Much Strength.
We Used Manual Work.
No Mob All That.
We Got To Use Our Hands, With A Piece Of Cloth To Wipe.
Always Got To Wipe A Few Times To Get A "Pass" From Ahma =P
Then They Would Handle Ironing Clothes.
They Didnt Want Me To Touch It Either.
So I Helped Out With Putting Those Clothes Back To The Respective Rooms.
Folding Them.
Or Putting Them Up On A Hanger.
Then They Would Have A Shower At The Kitchen Bathroom.
Changed Of Clothes.
Then They Went Home.
Then I Would Emo Emo Emo Emo Emo....
All The Way Till 7-8pm.
Where My Sister Would Be Back From Work.
Im So Afraid During This Time.
All Alone....
Last Time I Was Ar ....
Ok... Bye Bye....
YAY !! Alone !!!
Now Super Scaared....
So Ya.... Wait Till Family Back Le.
See Them Eat Dinner.
ChitChat With Them.
Then Put Those Dishes To The Kitchen Washing Area.
For My Mum To Wash =P
Then I Clean Up The Eating Table.
And Kept The Living Room Back To Its Original Position.
When They Slept.
Touched Computer.....
Tried To Sleep...
So That's It.
My Weekday Schedule =D
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Saw TiTanic Behind The Scenes Footages.
Still Think No One Have Done Such Great Things With So Little Money.
Then I Checked The Budget.
James Cameron
Director For Top Gross In These 2 Film.
Titanic And Avatar.
Titanic Budget ?
200million USD.
Avatar Budget ?
They Put N/A
But I Checked, Inclusive The LanD They Bought In NZ
For The Movie Avatar.
Gross Earn, 2.7b
Grow Profit 600m ?
Budget For Film 2.1b ?
Seriously Nonsense.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Think I Fell Asleep Awhile On My Chair.
Dreamt Of Something.
I Was Just Sitting Usually.
I Was In A Like Looking At My Table, From Behind My Chair.
As Like A 3rd Person.
Suddenly, Dark Fog Covered My Vision.
Came Back As Thought I Woke Up.
Sitting On My Chair.
Then Just, Something Flew In From My Window.
Crashing The Entire Place.
And I Woke Up.
Typing This Out.
Thats Something I Hope To Not Forget.
And Put It Down.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Friday, January 13, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Awesome Night.
Dinner With Anderson.
12 People =P
Its Been A While Since Almost The Entire Group Come.
Welson And Lukas Came After Dinner =D
Went To Marina Barrage =D
Found A Great Spot.
Which Have Got Lesser People =P
Slacked.
Played.
AhZhu Also Was There =D
Didnt Get Realli Good Shots On The Fireworks
Due To The Dam MBS Building Blocking The View.
Realli Is Nothing Much.
Very Boring.
But
When We Are Going Home.
Anderson Sent Us Back To Fued Cafe.
Unforunatedly.
Fued Is No Longer Under Anderson.
Cant Play Dota Together =D
Or Even Slack There.
And Anderson's New House Not Done Yet.
Went To The 24 Hours NTUC Near-by.
Where The Main Point Was Just To Get Some Drinks.
But, Came An Idea.
Some Were Hungry.
But No Where To Cook.
Offered My Place.
Then All Came To My Place To Cook And Eat.
As Usual, Nan And Yong De Do The Cooking =D
They Seem To Love Cooking.
So Just Leave Them To Be =D
Nan Also Loves Washing The Dishes 0.0
And Done A Pretty Good Job.
Taught By Vag- Regina =P
Cooked Spagetti =D
Plus Hot Dog.
Hah !
They Served In 3 Forms.
For Pigs...
Medium.
And Restaurant Style.
Ate 2 Servings Of Restaurant Style.
[ Little ]
Haha !
Wonder If You People Get The Joke.
Nan And Yong De Cleaned And Washed Up The Cookery.
While Cleaning And Drying Them.
Talked About Our Past.
Primary School...
Air Guns.
Eco Garden.
Gx Trying To Kill Himself.
Burning The Toilet.
Got Punished To Wash The Girls Toilet.
Music Room.
Gx Throwing Tables.
Many Many More.
Slacked And Chatted Till Around 5.30am.
Then They All Went Back.
Hmm.....
This Could Proberly Be The Last Few Times We Would Gather
With So Many People.
I Do Not Think That, If I Were To Go NS.
Gathering For Group, Would Be Tough.
Anyway, There Will Be Next Time.
20th January 2012 !!!
New Year Gathering As Well As Home Warming @ Anderson's New House.
Anyway,
Happy New Year =D
Off To Bed =D
Tired.
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